The next 4 days are guaranteed to be extremely difficult, to think almost a year ago I was so close to dying and yet my suicide plans failed and I was rushed to the E.R. Some days I wish I could have just lied there on my bed, still, peaceful, patiently awaiting death, my pale scarred wrists bleeding crimson onto my white sheets and a stomach full of pills, listening to the same song over and over until I stopped breathing. Other days I’m thankful to be alive and very recently I have learned to be happy again. I made a promise to a person I care about more than anything or anyone to not try again, but I know the temptation of the blade and the my thoughts will torture me through every waking hour and haunt the each crevice of my dreams.
Anonymous asked: Hey kiddo, just wanted to say don't underestimate the people who love you, if this guy loves you then it's his choice and nothing but him can change that. He's with you because he WANTS to be with you and love doesn't just entail the happiness, it entails everything. Stay strong, and keep your head up.
Thank you very much! That was very kind and I really appreciate it.
Drunkish again and have a pain killer in me. This should go well. 3/28.13